iMagiNarY buT rEaL

I remembered months ago during the ILC experience,,,

and i can’t believe that now is the PYC experience..

It’s been a week na since the PYC ended…

Really i have learned a lot from the conference…during the planning….the registration…the cramming days….doing the ids and kits….more and more…

God has truly been faithful not only to me but to all of us since He continuously bless us with everything our hearts desire….

I just can’t believe that i had undergone a great transformation.. I had grown mature, stronger and completely different when i was before.. =]

God uses people to be His instrument and gladly i was used and somehow became an inspiration to others..

Actually this PYC should be the 1st but actually is my second time. The 1st time which was last year i didn’t enjoy much hehe it’s because i was tired from my duty and busy that time.

The Conference was so great and the preparations were made. I wasn’t expecting that i would be assigned as the Secretariat Head. I really have no idea about the task assigned to me. So i’m really completely clueless.. I often joke to myself that i’m so dumb eheh not knowing what to do… =]

July 10, 2009
I was gonna cram and all since many tasks should be done like marathon numbers, IDs, names, registrants, master list, kits, money, etc…
Past 6 we arrived at the venue (CRAAHS). I was with Jessie from Iloilo and Francis who drop by my home. =]

Upon arriving the dance prepared by the High school was so great and so specially prepared to me haahha..as per request.. =] I was so happy and excited to see them dance in front of the people there..

We were doing the SECRETARIAT work…

after….
We then had our Worship and planning…

Everyone worked hard and helped each other to make the venue more attractive and something to be excited about or would give you the thrill hehe..
I mean from the term “bongga”… =] so that they’ll be amazed..=]

Late dinner…woooh praise GOD.. i was able to eat my fave meal hehe given by someone hehe… =] that made me so happy and energized to work and pursue more for God’s PyC..=]

We started doing the things we did earlier…and that i almost wanna give up hehe that i would scream and go crazy but as usual i was able to control myself from not doing so… =]

The others were working hard to put the lights, decorate the stage…practicing the dance…band etc….

We slept late like past 3 i guess..since we were organizing the IDs…etc
We were expecting almost 500 delegates..but it wasn’t included the people who reserved their slots…so the more the better…hehe

I was chit chatting while working with Al, Regine, JJ, Fred, Kim and Allen the others were asleep na..zZzZzZzZzZzZz

Allen even taught me the dance number of the service team to be performed tomorrow evening during the PARTY…hehe trying hard!!! AJAA!!!

I woke up past 6 am. Then hurried up since we have to set up the reigstration table and we didn’t even have the chance to plan and talk of what to do etc…

I immediately took a bath then we had our morning worship.

After that the IDs were distributed and i immediately left while bringing all the things we need for registration since it’s almost 7 in the morning..The delegates might wait hehe

It was a good thing that i wore a sports outfit to make me move easier and more comfortable than jeans. =] so that i could RUN hehe…than walking.. =)

My team was almost panicking since we have no idea of the process etc..
and we managed them hehe maybe it isn’t just organized but we did hehehe..

PRAISE GOD! The IDs were distributed…The marathon was started..
More delegates are flooding our table..hehe…and i was cramming stupidly as i did hehe

I have made instructions and give them their assigned tasks..
More walk ins coming…=]

After the marathon, delegates from other areas such as Sapian, Tapaz, Mambusao, Pontevedra, Hipona, etc have arrived…

The MASS was started and after that the SPORTS and CREATIVE Competitions begin….

I couldn’t believe that we reached our allocation that is 660. But somehow my brain tells me it’s more than that heheh most people do…

We were so busy.. I was even so hot tempered that i want to explode na. Good thing somebody was reminding me and that they understood what i really felt hehe..The pressure was kinda killing and destructive hehe..Kasi ang kulit nila eh hehe if only i could do something instantly but i can’t..i’m so hopeless heheh…good thing many helped us during the sealing of ids coz we are to prepare 200 ids.. OMG can we make it before lunch???? tssk tsssk…

“Patience….patience….” =] ang hirap naman ehhh…control your anger/temper heheh

Still God is so wonderful since He provided me with a meal to eat during breakfast and also lunch…=] and also during afternoon snack and dinner…I wasn’t able to spent something from my own pocket. heheh since i got no money na heheh

“Don’t worry…just pray” is what He assured to me…=)

I was feeling sleepy na hehe..
The 2 workshops were going and the IDs were distributed…thanks to my assistants…

Now it is the time for SPECIAL COMPETITIONS… =]

heheh i was there to witness it..so fun hahah…=]

After that i went with Clarisse to Lea’s house near the venue to take a bath. We weren’t expecting to eat there too. Praise God. We were accepted and treated like family…weeee

Now is the time for the BLACK and WHITE attire… =]
Before the talks started we had our Evening Worship after that we then proceed to the Sessions.

SANTI was the worship leader..

I was called by A.L. since I was to be 1 of the sharers ni Kuya Tan2
I was shocked that i couldn’t believe it.. why me??? hehe marami namang worth na mg share jan oh…heheh on the spot? heheh indi naman

Bday pala ni KIKO at ALFIE…heheh

While we were discussing the plans for the talk i can’t help but panic hehe i don’t know what to say eh…it was so sudden then in hours i’ll be standing in front of 660+ people..hmmmm

During the talks i was standing and preparing the thoughts in my head. Hmmm something’s bothering me but i just didn’t mind it so that i won’t be distracted…tsk tsk…

My anxiety level is almost increasing…still i’m doing the docu thing hehe..

Never want to regret this hehe…better to have an evidence and a souvenir hehe

This PYC might be my last hehe.. =]

The reflection during the two talks was awesome. Jame’s voice was so angelic eheh..=]

The production dancers performed great especially during the DEAD and GONE..hehe
I was sitting at the left side of the stage. I was listening to the speakers while reading the text i included in my share.

“My one desire is to live for YOU…”

When it was Kuya Tan’s talk i was feeling nervous..I couldn’t think and focus. But i just asked God’s guidance and also His Holy Spirit to watch on us all… =] The arrangement of the people to share was A.L., JM Sauza, Sarah (me), Kuya Tim, Tito Totong and Tita Lyn…

As he was discussing his talk we were preparing hehe…

He also had his reflection…while we were led to a prayer he would signal us then we’ll share then a song plays.. if that’s what i remember???

A.L. shared about his experience in the service fir the KFC. He will stand for the kids and teach them about GOD..

Sauza shared about how he committed his own self to Christ during the Kasangga recollection? That he will be an example to his fellow YFC in school.

I shared about my experience when i saw my friends who are reviewing. I really felt jealous. But God reminded me that i was special since He made me 1 step higher than this ordinary people who do earthly things. I was so free that i did everything for the glory of God. When i graduated i started to came back to YFC. When i was going to school all i thought of was just to attend the meeting and worship, it was all that i asked for but since i have graduated then i could do anything that i wanted. hehe

Seeing them being busy with school, review, board exam, night life, party etc…made me feel bad but thinking of the things i do made me realized i’m so special and extraordinary..

During that time i prepared something hehe it was a quote made from my experiences and through the guidance and leading of God and His spirit..

It goes this way….

Kaya brothers and sisters ginagawa ko ito ngayon… AKO MISMO..PARA KAY KRISTO (while raising the band of commitment) grabe pumalakpak cla? hahah praise GOD!

STEP UP! heheh yeeeeeeeahhhbaaa!

HEhe i was greeted with hugs and smile from my friends…it was a great moment…God is really touching our hearts that time….sabi pa nga niya “Good job!” hehe i was so happy!

I was touched with the sharing of kuya Tim regarding on how he failed the board exam and that he is planning to be a MISSION VOLuNTEER!!! yay sa wakas!!!

Then Tito Totong shared about his hurts…then Tita Lyn on living in circles..
“forgetting what lies behind…but straining forward to what lies ahead.. i continue my pursuit to the goal the prize of God’s upward calling in Christ JESUs.. -Philippians 3:13-14

Kami MISMO…para kay KRISTO…

seeing there family complete made me feel jealous yet i know that soon my family will be complete and happy living in one roof…=]

After the sharing we were called for them to see us hehe..Kuya Tan called all the sharers eh..
we stand there as the living testimonies of GOD and the persons who already STOOD UP for GOD naks…hehe ganun?

Then the commitment band was introduced.. It’s time to STEP UP…claim ur prize…..

The first to stand up was Roben…i admired his courage…=] then the rest followed…

what a great moment…good thing i caught it on cam…=]

After that all of us raise our hands…while i was busy taking and capturing that great moment..

“One People as one province all for ONE GOD”…united to STEP UP….

Praisefest…..then PARTY????????

to be continued….

So we had a great time dancing with the music and doing the crazy thing that makes us happy…

we almost slept past 2 in the morning….

I woke up past 6 am…yay i’m recharged again…

I had a hotdog sandwich for breakfast heheh then freshen up a little..

we started with the MASS…whew that was so hot hehe now i’m standing to my commitment..

then we had worship…

then awarding….

next venue would be at HIPONA weeee…

PRAISE GOD…

The awards were mostly TAKEN BY HIGH SCHOOLs… hurraaayyy!!

and we’ll be having a victory party next SUNDAY at FLAT ROck.. wooo hoooo

I was feeling so DOWN when the others were cleaning up…
There was a deficit in the money spent..I was afraid since i didn’t stole anything from it.

I admit taking small bills like 20s and 50s but thousands? no way hehe
I felt so down and weak like i have no courage to face and smile at them.

I guess i was guilty but how can i be? I don’t have it and since i have no control of the things that happens arrgghh…

But somehow it made me smile when someone said that he honored me ahaha accepting the task that i have no idea of…somehow that ligthened the burden i’m holding and keeping insde..

PYC taught me such lessons that i might have not been aware of…
Though it showed the real me hehe eeeww but still God has HIS ways of unfolding the weakness and dark secrets i keep to be made known to others.

“you can’t keep all these things to yourself…soon it will all be revealed” hehe

“The more you keep it…the more it is seen”

The best part would be eating together hehe placing the foods on the manila paper and using bare hands while eating….that’s the fun part for me..i enjoyed eating while bonding with them

want more? hhahaa the HOT SEAT of Questions by our HEADS and coordinators
i couldn’t concentrate much with the discussion haha good thing i stayed and never left..
ang daming REVELATION nuh…well we can’t deny the REALITY…hmmmm
it’s between the PCG and CLUSTERS hahha “ewan ko ba sa kanila…”

The part that i really love would be the time when everything was settled..
thehe kasi dun mo na nafifeel ung fulfillment na part wherein you’ll say “YES…success..” ung ganun at tsaka sabihin mo na “tapos na” hehe PRAISE GOD…

I had a great time knowing people…informing them…caring and loving them as my brothers and sisters…=]

Somehow GOD is really challenging me to MOVE out of my COMFORT ZONE hehe and a challenge to BRING GOD’s HIGH to the SCHOOLS..and also gather, inspire and empower the YOUTH heheh..

ang daming DREAMS ni GOD for YFC and for the PROVINCE..

Surely i will… “AKO MISMO….para kay KRISTO..”

I had commited na for HIM….

Para kay KRISTO..Ako mismo ang tatayo, magsisilbi at magiging inspirasyon para sa mga kabataan sa bayan ko….=] woooh praise God for a successful PYC with more dan 660 delegates.. =) STEP UP and MOVE FORWARD in CHRIST!!!!

Heehe…i hope that this is really WORTH READING AND WORTH YOUR PRECIOUS TIME…

LOVE….. LIVE……. LEAD……..

and with that and those…

may GOD be PRAISE!!!

thanks and GOD BLESS….

—–> conference song composed by Gay2 aka BADONG… =]

para sa yo Panginoon ko…unti unting magbabago..
dahil sa yo ako’y naliwanagan ng husto
ang lakas ng loob na ibinigay mo ay sapat na ito para mahalin mo
ang tulad ko na isinisigaw ang pangalan mo

ako mismo,,,,
para kay Kristo

The beginning of a relationship can be a tricky course to navigate.  Guys (like me) aren’t so good at guessing what women think or want, and our stupidity can lead to otherwise easily avoidable arguments.  Setting some basic rules with your new flame may help you get past the small stuff and start enjoying your lives together.

Here are ten guidelines to smooth the road with your new beau.

1. P.D.A. regulation. People have different comfort levels when it comes to couples behavior in public.  Find the line (holding hands, smooching, heated necking on the subway platform) and don’t cross it. 7 Commandments For Showing Love In Public

2. One day a week. Decide on one day every week you can spend together, no one else invited.  Everyone is busy; designating together-time is healthy for any relationship.

3. No suffocation. Being together is great—acting like conjoined twins is not. Respect each other’s space and don’t take it so seriously if he asks for some time to himself.

4. Don’t talk about the future until it’s time to talk about the future. Nothing freaks a guy out like the prospect of kids before he’s actually ready to have them.  Don’t think he doesn’t want to be with you if he shies away from the topic. He just enjoys the way things are and isn’t quite ready to add a mini-me to the mix. Getting Your Guy To Talk About The Future

5. Forge friendships with your partner’s pals… Not that you have to be one of the bros, but it’s nice for him, and you, if feel comfortable around his buddies.

6. …But don’t forget your own. Don’t drop the friends who were with you before he showed up.  Ditching the gals will lead to feelings of resentment and neglect, and if your relationship comes to an end, you’ll want that circle of support.

7. Don’t hide things. You don’t need to tell him about the time you hooked up with your father’s golf buddy, but it’s a good idea to tell him you’re still friends with your ex before he runs into the two of you on the street.

8. Loosen up. Don’t start a fight because he glanced at the attractive girl that just walked by. Likewise, he shouldn’t get worked up just because you said Jake Gyllenhaal is hot.  It’s not like either of you is trying to sleep with them (unless you are, in which case you should reevaluate your role in this twosome). His Wandering Eye. What Does It Mean?

9. Don’t kiss and tell. This is a relationship, not an elongated one-night stand.  There’s no need to talk about what goes on in the bedroom at the water cooler.

10. No assumptions or guessing games. Don’t force him to guess what you really mean by, “It’s OK if we don’t go out on my birthday.” Being upfront with your feelings will prevent many conflicts.

I attended this seminar because I was free and was curious about it..

It started when Alfie texted me about this..then i decided to come..haha..
it says there to arrive at 9 am..but I arrived at 10:30 hahah..super late..XD

it was good and i found it very helpful..

Dangerous Drugs Act of 2002 (RA 9165)
hehe not sure…

1) Contemplate - kulang ang mga pinggan

2) Punctuation - pera para maka-enrol

3) Ice Buko - nagtatanong kung ayos na ang buhok

4) Tenacious - sapatos na pang tennis

5) Calculator - tawagan kita mamaya

6) Devastation - sakayan ng bus

7) Protestant - Tindahan ng prutas
Statue - Ikaw ba yan?

9) Tissue - Ikaw nga!

10) Predicate - Pakawalan mo ang pusa

11) Dedicate - Pinatay ang pusa

12) Aspect - Pantusok o pandurog ng yelo

13) Deduct - Ang pato

14) Defeat - Ang paa (ng pato?)

15) Detail - Ang buntot (ng pato?)

16) Deposit - Gripo (Call DIPLOMA if DEPOSIT is leaking)

17) City - Bago mag-utso; A number to follow 6

18) Cattle - Doon nakatila ang Hali at Leyna

19) Persuading - Unang Kasal

20) Depress - Ang nagkasal sa PERSUADING

22) Defense - Ginamit ng mga pangsulat sa kontrata sa PERSUADING

23) It Depends - Kainin mo ang bakod

24) Shampoo - Bago mag-labing-isha (11)

25) Delusion - Maluwang (kapag maluwang ang damit, eh DELUSION)

26) Delivery - Walang bayad. Kapag working lunch, eh DELIVERY na ang
tanghalian

27) Profit - Patunayan mo

28) Balance Sheet - What comes out after eating a balance diet

29) Backlog - bacon saka egg

30) Beehive - magpakatino ka

31) CD-ROM - tingnan mo ang kwarto

32) Debug - ang ipis

33) Defrag - ang palaka

34) Defense - ang bakod

35) Defer - ang balahibo

36) Deflate - ang plato

37) Detest - ang eksamin

38) Devalue - ‘yon ang susunod sa letrang V

39) Devote - ang boto

40) Dilemma - brownout!, a!

41) Effort - ‘dun nagla-land ang efflane

42) Forums - apat na kwarto

43) July - nagsinungaling ka ba?

44) Liturgy - what comes after litur F

Oh GOD..Truly only YOU knows the desire of my heart and only you hear my CRIES….. =p

I dunno what to do right now and there are a lot of things that bothers me..I can’t think RIGHT and i feel so helpless. All that i can do is CRY, HOPE and PRAY…

I have decided to go and attend the ILC in Cebu.. If ever HE permits me and shows signs for me then I’ll go and abandon my tasks here for the meantime. =] I really wanted to go since i THIRST for HIM. I admit that i am SPIRITUALLY DRY at the moment and that i need this to light the FIRE and be quenched from my THIRST.. I desperately WANT and NEED to attend that.

I may be confused but i know i really have to. And by doing this i know i have to let go a lot of things and that i am responsible for that. Oh GOD please take away all of my worries and fears that might stop me from serving and attending the said event…. =]

All i know is you CALLED me..and i will ANSWER…. =]

i will go…

and HE will MAKE a way for me… =]

THANKS…. =D

Last night i was so bothered about the problems on going to ILC in Cebu, emailing PAPA asking to permit me to go, wishing for a vacant slot, and of course my fare and pocket money.

What i decided yesterday was very RAPID..haha I mean it was so sudden and i didn’t expect to decide right away to GO. I just remembered a friend telling and asking me about the planned trip i wanted to go. At first i said NO but when i attended the meeting and as it was going on i suddenly felt a strange feeling and thirst for GOD. There i was crying and exclaiming that i would GO. I often said “I might go CRAZY if i can’t attend that.” I was so crying yet still tried hard to smile so they won’t notice. I want to be a part of this event and this might never pass again. =] I wanted to grab the opportunity before it slips away and never wanted to live with REGRETS.

Thankfully GOD did HELPED me and faithfully and lovingly answered my PRAYERS. =]

My only desire is for me to attend. I don’t want that the BOARD exam on November will bother me since it is months away and i have plenty of time to prepare. There i was planning and finding a way. I had worries and i didn’t know what to do but pray, wait and hope. =]

Last night I couldn’t sleep. Maybe deep within me i was afraid and that i might not take it. =]

Morning….My eyes were so ouchy..haha Maybe because of the crying and sleeping late. =] The review class was about pedia. There i was confidently telling my CLOSEST friends about my PLAN and they were shocked about it. they thought i backed out but then why so sudden? Hehe I was so glad since i could feel their support for me. That made me happy and gave me more strenght to go on. =]

LUNCH….Manang (ATE) told us that PAPA called. Upon hearing it i was so afraid and that almost near crying for i can sense what she is going to say. =[ When she told me that it was ok and that he is going to give me 2k. There i was crying. It's tears of joy and that i was so relieved about it. GOD it's a sign already. You really want me to come??? Then i'll come..
GOD told me not to worry but only to keep praying and have faith on HIM.

I wanted to take my SPIRITUAL life to a higher level since I need to be deeply invovled with Him. In nursing, it's building a relationship. =]

Right now I am packing up my things….so happy that i want to scream and tell everybody about GOD. =] I am so blessed to have a family that is so understanding, loving, caring, patient, and everything…All i know is that they LOVE me and that I LOVE them.. =]

Thanks GOD. Please do guide us on our trip. May the Conference you prepared for US will be SUCCESSFUL and may we bring GLORY to YOUR NAME. =]

Yes ILC…..KITAKITS…. =]
My 1st ever CONFERENCE…. =] woooohh..

Well i am gonna miss the review class in PSYCHE and Virtual Reality Test but i know i can catch up.

“God will fight for you, you need only to be STILL..”

Yes my Lord… =] I will follow you… =] hehe

GOD bless guys..
thanks for the support and everything… =]
mwaaahhh…gonna miss you hahah…
be back soon. =]

Well maybe the title says much about the content of this blog…hehe

What I’m trying to say is….. that this day will be the start of a new life..

Ask me why?

Well early this afternoon we had our Talk no. 9 in the Christian Life Program (CLP) of the Singles for Christ (SFC). The title of the talk was Receiving God’s gift: The power of the Holy Spirit. =]

So far the participants including me where all in all 18. =]

I, being a member of YFC (Youth for Christ) knows about the so called “BAPTISM” since we too have gone through it. So the feeling i had was kinda excited yet still feeling nervous too! and too distracting since it was so cold and chilly haha i was near the aircon…=p

Later before the week started, I had to go through various tests especially the headache and eye prob i felt like it was my doom haha, the problems i encountered…the fights…the doubts and worries….I then remember what the speaker of Talk 8 said that we will be tested before the baptism so we should entrust it all to HIM. And i felt i did it but partially heheh

All i can say is that i have gone through those things and that i have become strong, learned a lot and i felt that i am able to fight just for my GOD aka my DAD.. =]

And i can believe that “this is really is it” hahah probably heard it somewhere… =]
I mean this is the time that i have been waiting for… =] a moment that i’ll cherish… =]
All of us dreamed about this and that the graduation (CLP) is near… ummm about 3 weeks (SUNDAYS) to go….

I felt the HOLY SPIRIT touching my life like it was before. Entering and filling my body with the sensation like being heated and empowering me within. I kinda felt the presence and it was the feeling that i missed and longed for. It has been 4 long years ago hehe when i was 16, a freshman…and now i’m 20, a graduate and jobless hahah…I couldn’t remember my baptism back then…i must have forgotten hahahah

Here’s something i made up through God’s guidance hehe
Now is the time for a change…a time to STEP UP and
move FORWARD with CHRIST.. =]
A time to leave all things behind and follow HIM…
Para kay KRISTO…ako mismo magbabago!!!!!!!

I can truly say and testify to the things that have happened, that my GOD is truly an amazing, wonderful, awesome, powerful and indescribable LORD……more than words can say, more than feelings can express, more than the knowledge in my mind, more the actions can do and more than the heart can feeel…

I really felt like I’m a new person hehe like REBORN hmmmm

I’m so excited for the gifts that i asked of HIM…surely i will use it for the good…=] no, i mean the greater goood…=]

hehe basta secret na ung details hahah..

stay tuned ka na lng….

God bless kapatid… =]

salamat……

with that may GOD be praise! =] wooohooooo!!

Altogether let’s all live a NEW LIFE together….